*Sanitized
I was trying on giving meditation a chance the other day. It seemed like a sane thing to do during this maddening period. So I joined a facebook group Marije - one of my favorite creatures of this world - has recently created. It was a live meditation session guided by her. When asked to journal about what would make us utterly satisfied, I found myself writting down with every tiny detail what would a day at a fasfem studio would be like. I saw the colours, I smelled the air, I felt at home. Marije was impressed by the vividness of this visualisation. I was impressed!
You see deep down there, at our core, our truths hide. Our truest truths. The ones that have nothing to do with others’ expectations of us. And now that we spend so much time with ourselves more than ever, those truths finally find the crack to emerge from.
Times are unprecedently hard. Beyond every wild science fiction scenario. Because the scenario has a writer who knows how to end it. COVIT-19 pandemic story has no such thing as a creator - even though conspiracy theories keep trying to convince us otherwise - to reveal the end. All we have are the facts.
People getting infected rapidly is a fact. Number of deaths augmenting day by day is a fact. The tremendous need for social distancing is a fact. The extreme danger the elderly, the sickened and the poor of this world are facing is an absolute fact. Domestic violence increasing numbers another fact.
But a fact also is that scientists all over the world work non stop to find ways to deal with this. A fact is that clothing brands - from collosus to small businesses - create and donate tons of face masks. A fact is that our neighbours started checking up on us. We started checking up on them as well. Nature started to breathe, to be heard of even in big cities, to get clean. I mean squeky clean. Like our hands are suppose to be every time we wash them.
To be sanitized.
As if I was trying to exorcise the conspiracy theories, I came up with my own theory. Maybe this is the time to clarify. To clean up the mess. Don’t get me wrong. I am not about to overwhelm you with productivity and self - optimization tips. During such times all of these feel superficial. And futile. What I mean is that it might be the time for humanity to gain its…humanity back. We have lost so much of it along the way. We worship emptyness and vain in some people. We marginalize other people. We stick to patriarchy and all it’s abnormities. We overconsume and exploit surroundings in unsustainable ways. We keep inventing wars. Our system is rotten and feeds off its own rotten flesh. It has to change.
To be sanitized.
As ourself needs to. You can’t clean the outside when the inside of you is still infected. So give yourself the time to think. To slow down and evaluate the situation. What weighs more in the scale of your soul? How does it make you feel? What has your current way of living offered or deprived you from? It is right there inside of you. The people you adore, the one’s who uplift you, the places you wish to live, your values, your emotions, your ethics, the things you wish to create, to offer. The life you deserve to live. Pouring out of you. So pure. All you have to do is to let it rise. To get rid of the unnecessary.
To be sanitized.
